There are times in our walk with the Lord that we do not want to confess how badly we’ve messed up.

Not too long ago, I woke up and was enjoying my cup of coffee and Bible reading when the Lord highlighted the following for me:

“Today you are about to engage in battle with your enemies. Do not be cowardly. Do not be afraid, alarmed, or terrified because of them. For the LORD your God is the One who goes with you to fight for you against your enemies to give you victory.” Deuteronomy 20:3-4

I promptly thanked the Lord for fighting for me and asked him to prepare me for the day.

Oh wait, that is NOT what happened.  No, that would have been the Spirit’s response inside of me.  Instead, my flesh responded by telling the Lord I was not prepared for battle and I didn’t have a clue as to what He was trying to say to me.  With that, I went about my day.

Occasionally, throughout the day those verses would come to my mind when I was dealing with a situation, but nothing said, this is what I meant.  Later that evening the battle raged, and I didn’t even recognize it until it had already come and gone.

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What happened was my desire and passion for something crowded out the fact of a battle raging not against flesh and blood but against the powers, authorities, and principalities I could not see (Ephesians 6:12).  Instead of yielding to a spirit of continual prayer in handling a situation (Ephesians 6:18), I reacted out of my flesh instead of a spirit of love.  Later that evening, the Lord graciously reminded me that I did not put on the full armor of God that morning when He warned me I would be going into battle (Ephesians 6:11).  I didn’t even try.

The following morning as I met with the Lord, in His most loving, disciplining manner the following verses were brought to the surface:

“The one who follows instruction is on the path to life, but the one who rejects any correction goes astray.” Proverbs 10:17.

I had to confess to the Lord again my unwillingness to acknowledge that I can do nothing in my strength and that when He does so clearly speak to me, I must be willing to press harder into what He is trying to tell me even when I don’t understand.

Today I am thankful for a God who does not condemn but does rebuke and corrects His children tenderly through His word (2 Timothy 3:16).  Maybe you also needed the reminder today that God goes with you into battles and fights for you.  Lord give us the willingness to clothe ourselves in humility today (1 Peter 4:5-6) with the full armor of God and walk with Him into the middle of battles He alone will fight for us.

Lord give us the willingness to clothe ourselves in humility today with the full armor of God and allow You to fight for us and walk with us and into whatever battles lie ahead.