As we have been dealing with grudges and judging this week, one of the hardest things to do is to forgive yourself. While Jesus did not have anything in His past that He needed redemption from, He did offer redemption over and over again to many people while He walked on earth and ultimately to everyone when He died on the cross. Consider these stories: the woman caught in adultery, the parable of the prodigal son and the lost sheep. Consider too this story as my sister joins us for another guest post and shows us how Jesus provides a way for us to Die to Our Past and follow Him.
do not dwell on the past.”
One of the hardest things for me to overcome in my walk with Christ has been my past. I struggled for the longest time with letting go of past hurts, regrets and disappointments and this struggle was a huge hindrance to me fully experiencing God’s perfect love and grace.
I accepted Christ as my Savior at a young age. I was brought up in a loving, Christian home with parents who encouraged me to live a Godly life and make good decisions. However at some point, like many of us do, I strayed from this path and wise counsel and decided that my way was best. This resulted in some choices that were far from Christ-like and drew me farther and farther away from God and His blessings. Looking back the broken marriages, partying and many other things I participated in were just an attempt for me to fill the empty void that was created when I distanced myself from Christ.
Thankfully, because of my strong Christian upbringing and the conviction of the Holy Spirit, I woke up to the realization that the only way I would really be happy is to return to God with a truly sorrowful heart and place all my transgressions at the foot of the cross. So, I did. I asked for forgiveness and jumped headfirst back into the Christian life that for so long I rejected.
That decision changed my life dramatically and I began to see God’s blessings flood my life in both small and big ways. I was back in my Father’s embrace and He had not only forgiven me but also accepted me back with open arms. While I was happier than I could ever remember, I constantly felt guilt for my past mistakes. I knew God had forgiven me, but I was having a tough time letting go of the past and forgiving myself.
The amazing thing about God though, is that the more you search out and yearn to be closer to Him, the bigger He becomes. He can overshadow and wipe away any fears, struggles or difficulties that consume us. I eventually realized that by holding on to my guilt, I was sacrificing a deeper connection to Christ. Letting go of the shame and remorse I had been carrying for so long opened up more room in my heart and mind to allow Christ to perform His wonderful work in me.
“For as high as the heavens are above the earth, so great is His love for those who fear Him; as far as the east is from the west, so far has He removed our transgressions from us.” Psalm 102:12
This is day 23 of the 31 days of Dying to Live.
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