Yesterday as I was driving down the road, I was reflecting on the possibility of having a little girl in our home soon. I have received multiple questions as to when this might happen and my response has simply been, “maybe sometime this month.” We are still waiting on our application to be approved upon which we will receive our license. After we receive our license it is just a matter of time.
It was the thought of waiting for our final approval that pierced me the most. After praying for over a year, attending classes, child-proofing our house, fire and home inspections, purchasing the right things to be considered worthy of being a family who can have someone else’s child in their home for an undetermined length of time weighed heavy on my heart. Why? I was reminded that I did not have to go through an approval process to be placed in the home of my Lord and Savior. God did not require an inspection of my heart before He would dwell inside me. In fact it is the exact opposite. We are told in Ephesians 2:8-9
“For you are saved by grace through faith, and this is not from yourselves;
it is God’s gift—not from works, so that no one can boast.”
We serve a God who by His very nature chooses us to be His adopted children without having to get everything “just right” before He will rescue us from our life of sin and death. While we are continuing to pray for the little girl God desires to rescue from the streets of Houston and ultimately from Satan’s grasp, God also desires to rescue the child’s mother and father who are so entangled and ensnared in the bondage of sin. While we anxiously anticipate the little girl’s arrival, we also have a deep burden to minister to the child’s mother and father despite the multitude of wrong decisions they have made in their past. We are praying we will have the heart of God towards the child’s biological family and be able to be used by God to shine His love and grace into their lives. For they too do not need another family judging the wrong decisions they have made, but need to experience the grace that we have all experienced and continue to experience on a daily basis. Max Lucado in his book, Grace, states:
“Grace is God as heart surgeon, cracking open your chest, removing your heart—poisoned as it is with pride and pain—and replacing it with his own. Rather than tell you to change, he creates the change. Do you clean up so he can accept you? No, he accepts you and begins cleaning you up. His dream isn’t just to get you into heaven but to get heaven into you. What a difference this makes!”
It is this difference our family desires to witness happen in our own lives as well as in the lives of the family we will be united with through a little girl. Is my heart prepared for the “baggage” this family will bring? Is my heart prepared to be jerked out of my chest when the very real possibility of having the child who is placed in our home taken out of our home and placed back into the dire circumstances she was taken from because of a judge or some other unforeseen act? No. Am I willing to follow Christ in obedience to the work He has called us to at this point in our spiritual walk? Some days. Do I know deep down in my heart that Christ will be the one who provides the strength I need in everything that happens? Yes.
Please continue to be in prayer for our family as we wait patiently for the next step God has for us. We have stepped out in faith when God called us into this process and must now walk in grace as He leads us each day. Please also pray for the Little Footprints Ministry as so many children are waiting for people to submit to God and experience heaven inside of them instead of waiting until Christ calls them home to experience it. Visit http://www.littlefootprintscm.com for more information about how you can help.